The innocent glances
The talks thru the night
The meaningless fights, The meaningful laughs
The candour, The ease
Guarded we were of unleashing our true self
But our eyes soon mastered reading one other well
When it developed, neither took note
Just a blissful feeling percolated the soul
The anxiety The hesitance
I remember it all
The gratification that permeated
When Realization dawned
Began a journey
Clandestine and Passionate
The ardour heightened,
By the necessitated secret
Unprepared and Undaunted
We ploughed on together
Experiencing the comfort of friendship with fervour
Young and Fearles
We held our own
Nurturing and Advising
The extension of one's own
Months passed, the secrecy ended at will
The knowledge bringing an abandon that thrilled
Heady was the concoction of camaraderie and passion
As we experienced love in every fraction
Gladly we bared mind body and soul
Till I became unvirginally yours
The journey had reached a point of no return
As i submitted more than I had yearned
Lying next to you the uncertainty plagued
The night welded into morn,
But uncertainty remained
I did not doubt my strength to plunge
But I did doubt my strength to endure
Morning dawned as u stirred, Reaching out, Hungry for more
"Don't", I said, "It Hurts"
Tenderly u caressed then, Gentler than Before
Abandoned I feel now, I wonder why
It seems u have disappeared, suddenly from my life
Please remind me, When it all began
The meaningful fights, The void of talks
The anger, The denial, The silent tears,
The discomfort and rejection, And the Heartburn
When it developed, I didn't take note
But the demons still plague me
Fiercer than before
A sinking feeling accompanies me now
The anger, The betrayal
I feel it all
"Don't", I said, "It Hurts"
But now the plea falls on deaf ears
